Many of us old ones have our course set we cannot not move to the country, travel, buy a new car, get a girlfriend if wife dies.
Right now I can send some clumsy letters, make minimum donations to the congregation ( never the borg), and keep wife from too much distress. She says I dont act like I believe. If only she knew. We have 2 real friends, the rest are acquaintances and that is still colored by religion. She worries about the kids not being gung ho. Some comments lead me to know they have read here at some time. HI
If I won the lottery we would still be old and crippled.
Guess who shoveled my walk, brought iover a snack, helped me move a couch, ? Neighbors. Not even a phone call from the " leaders". BUT, they send a monitor every time there is an operation that could lead to bleeding